"Maybe I can find a place I can call my home
Maybe I can find a home I can call my own."
- Loreena McKennitt
Isn't that what we all want? What we all wish for?
A place to be home; a place to be yours. It's what I want. A place, a home, a life all my own.
I'm constantly thinking of past, present, and future. I'm a wonderfully contemplative person. No wonder I can write so very well.
I will, some day, find friends, and people to love me, who I can do the same for, in return. I hope that I will, someday, even find a boyfriend, or a girlfriend, to love with all my heart. It seems unlikely, just at this particular time in my life, but, as I said yesterday--a girl can dream, can't she?
I know that there's inherent trust, there--I am a dreamer. I am an idealist, and an optimist, and, in the long run, I know that I will be happier, and better off than most, for it.
Know what? I am. And I will be. And I will do and be my best. And, I will succeed. Not to show anyone up, not to prove myself to any but my own self. No, I will succeed only because it's what I want to do; what I want to happen.
What I want to be.
After all, I'll only live this life once.
Why not make the best of it?
I'll make it wonderful, because I want and need it to be. No bad ifs, ands, or buts about it. Only the good ones.
I will make it be so. And, so, it will be done.
So Mote It Be.
Blessed be, Nikki-chan.